Birth Story Mythmending through Psychedelic Therapy & Somatic Experiencing
My Story of Rebirthing & Healing Birth Trauma
I took my mushroom microdose for the day—0.2g, the most I’d done, but a mix of cap (mostly) and stem. I made my cacao-milk—with the raw goat milk I milked myself from my soft-eyed doe—pouring it just-boiled over the pieces of mushroom, and added a dropperful of reishi tincture as I had done the last two weeks. Within maybe ten minutes of eating the mushrooms I felt the effects begin to set in. I then felt the anxiety begin to build and rise and began to become air-hungry, just as I had noticed two days ago when I took my last dose (an increase from my 0.1 to 0.18g). Like that day, I felt like I needed to stim and shake out what was rising in my body. It suddenly clicked—this wasn’t just anxiety (either my own day to day anxiety exacerbated by the mushrooms as can happen, nor the “Oh no I’m high” anxiety at initial consumption of any mind-altering substance I consume), this was trauma surfacing.
This was my body with the help of the mushroom medicine releasing trauma stored in my tissues and my nervous system to be released—like when massage releases toxins from the muscles into the blood stream. The other day when I had felt this, I had intuitively taken out my bull-kelp medicine rattles and worked them in a toroidal (donut-shaped) energy pattern around my body, shaking both my body/stimming and filling the immediate space around me (and my sensory—sound/hearing—input) with the rattling while swaying my body back and forth from side to side from my hips. But this time as I shook the rattles and began to sway my hips, I started to feel something else, something different arise in my body. It had been so long, so long ago now, but I suddenly realized what was rising in my body blooming from my hips and sacrum—a contraction.
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